Sometimes Deep . . . Often Random Thoughts

Well, another year and another of chapter of my life is coming to an end.

After much thought and contemplation I chose to give my notice on Tuesday, and December 30th will be the last day of my job.  I have to use the word “job” very lightly, because for the past 2 1/2 years it has been so much more than a job for me.

Almost three years ago, I met two very amazing young men who had a vision.  They, and their vision changed my life.  I hate to use the word “job” to describe this experience that I have had, because it has been just that, an experience.  Sure, it paid the bills,  but in reality it did so much more than that for me.  For the first time in a very long time I felt like I was doing something important, helping two men start their business, and helping people out of some very hard situations in having to short sell their home.  Then they became my family, they became my brothers. Then we grew, and my family grew.  I have had the privilege to share a large percentage of my life for the past 2 1/2 years with the most amazing people.  Kevin and Fred have had an indescribable impact on my life and the only thing I can say is that I love them more than I thought I could.  But its not just Kevin and Fred, but the people who joined us throughout the years.

Brian was my baby brother, and watching him grow in his music career has made me beyond proud.  Jamie, well, Jamie is my mini me, and I love her more and more every day.  Stephanie had the opportunity to start her career in the field she loves and she surprises me daily.  Andrew, though he has moved on to other things, is wise beyond his years and I miss our philosophical discussions.  Every one on our sales team stepped out of their comfort zone and excelled, and I’m so proud.  Keith and Angie, who became my brother and sister in-law. David was, is and always will be my sunshine.  And though I have said it before, I will forever wish God made more people like him.

Then there are the other people in the Keller Williams Arizona Realty office, who although not on my team have had an amazing impact on my life.  Steph, who has often been my sounding board.  Kathie B. who I share a great spiritual bond with.  Kathy C, who lights up my day as soon as I see her absolutely amazing smile.  Bob S. who takes my breath away every time I see his beautiful blue eyes. Mac, who I have had some amazing conversations with, and who is one of the few people I am on the same level with spiritually and politically. Jessica, who is freakin amazing, and a blast to be with, and who I have so much in common with. Betty, who shares my love of baking. Bret, who chose to push through and make it in Real Estate.  Eliot, who allows me to call him out on all his silliness and even appreciates it.  Ted, who brings me back to the east coast every time he opens his mouth.  Derrik, who gets me, and is one of the only people in the world who not only sees through me, but calls me out on my crap when few other people aren’t afraid to do that.  Cameron, who has unknowingly taught me to let down my guard, who has quickly become one of my closest friends and who never fails to make me laugh.  I could never every express to each and every one of you how much I absolutely LOVE and appreciate you. And everyone else in that office, who I have built amazing bonds with, which I will never let go of.

I am truly blessed.  Blessed by the things that I have learned, by the people who have come into my life, and by the experiences I have had.

While I thought I would be there forever, and while it was one of the hardest things I have ever done in my adult life, I do know that it is just the end of another chapter, and that a new one is about to begin.

This is a bitter-sweet time, filled with sadness, anxiety, stress, excitement, joy and anticipation of what is next.

This book I call my life has been everything from scary to fun, happy to sad, tragic to comedic, and aside from the loss of my mother, I wouldn’t take any of it back.  I am who I am because of, the experiences and the “mistakes”, the people who have come and gone,  and each and every one of the chapters.  As I turn the page on this on this one, I can only pray that I have had just a little impact on the lives of all of the people who have so deeply touched and impacted me.